Today is the Day

I almost didn't go to church this morning (because Trey was working) but I am so glad I did.  (It's actually kinda nice going and sitting alone sometimes because you don't have any distractions).  We sang this song (playing now) by Lincoln Brewster.  I've heard the lyrics a thousand times, but somehow today they spoke to me in a more powerful way.  If you have time, take a minute and read the lyrics as you listen to the song. 

I`m casting my cares aside
I`m leaving my past behind
I`m setting my heart and mind on You
Jesus

I`m reaching my hand to Yours
Believing there`s so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good
Is good

Chorus:

Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
And I won`t worry about tomorrow
I`m trusting in what You say
Today is the day
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Today is the day
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

I putting my fears aside
I`m leaving my doubts behind
I`m giving my hopes and dreams to You
Jesus
I`m reaching my hands to Yours
Believing there`s so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good
Is good


It's amazing how I can fail so miserably at remembering and resting in the most simple truths that God has given to me!  Actually living every day in total trust as He would have me is so hard.  Lately, I have been dealing with Satan placing some major fears in my heart and mind.  Sadly, rather than rebuking them immediately, I have been entertaining these fears/thoughts that are not from MY HEAVENLY FATHER to the point that they have been consuming me at times.  But today as I was worshipping, I felt God just hugging me and telling me "Trust in ME Abby, All I have in store for you is good!  Give Me your hopes and dreams, quit holding on so tightly to them." 

My life right now is so conflicting... On the one hand, I have it ALL and am so richly blessed! But on the other hand, there are a few things in my life that make me want to throw a full on, kicking, screaming adult temper tantrum.  This year has been very challenging in many ways thus far - and I am sure that there are many life challenges awaiting me around the corner.  I've never had more responsibility than I do now with my job and the girls, but Trey is busier than ever with work.  It is a DAILY struggle for me to live out the word "contentment."  I long for the day when we have a little more normalcy.  I definitely cherish the days we have together as a family more than ever before!  I'm sure God is getting a kick out of me lately in my prayers and attemtps at "bargaining" with Him to get my way. I'll just be honest though, so far, it's not working.  I have a feeling that God is trying to teach me some life lessons, so hopefully I can learn them sooner rather than later! 
Here's to keeping it real with you people.  I don't have it all together and probably never will, but that is okay, because Jesus does have it together and that is all that matters!